Hi! I'm back....its surprising.. i forgot the password again but at least I was able to retrieve it again... Blogs has been popping out left and right I was close to creating new blog but then again i've realized that this blog sassy girl has a sentimental value.  I've created this site since I was in college.  It witnessed transformation of thoughts, how my words mature in time and my feelings were explored...

Hmm let me see, the last time I was here, I was really broken hearted with my first love I should say... but here I am right now... coping up with my new life.  Who would have thought that I could make it up to here... I'm all back in one piece with a new special someone to spend another chapter of my life.... my AJ... to be continued

PAIN.. how do you describe it?.. intolerable, uncontrollable, unpredictable and unstoppable... I can't induce no more.. I'm lifeless.. I'm sober..I can't breathe.. no one can stop me.. except for myself.. I wil .. I know I will soon... and as soon as I'm over I'll be back here...

Finally I'm back!  I was able to retrieve a new password.  The last article I uploaded was last 2 years ago. Hmmmm, we need to catch up on things.  Time seems to run so fast.  Things change sometimes you don't even notice it.  The issue is how you are going to accept changes happening in your life.  Drastic or not we have no choice but to accept and live with it.  How do you define drastic?  What are the boundaries and to what extent are you going to say that such change is drastic.  Let me give you an example.  My sudden assignment in Cebu is so drastic!  No dialogue between me and the management on why and how I was chosen to be assigned in the vacant territory.  I know there are unexplained things UFO, spirits, life after death but I bet this has an explanation.  Firstly, I don't speak in Bisaya. Secondly, I don't have friends and relatives in Cebu and thirdly, I grew up in the city and living in Cebu is a very big adjustment for me.  In short, I don't see any reason for them to assign me that far.  Unless they had a word with me prior the assignment then I won't retaliate this way.  They took away my life and family from me.  Crucial part is hearing mass on a Sunday alone.  I don't know when I am going to surpass all of this but I won't last.  Why continue a job that you're not happy with.  Life is too short better spend it with your loved ones.  I'm 26 and in a few years time I'll leave my parents behind and put up a family of my own.  But right now, there's nothing I want but to spend my remaining single years with my parents brother and sisters.....  That's how much I value my family.  I'll give up this career no doubts about it.  I have all the reason there is for me to say that I give up.  Soon this will all be over.  I've worked my butts off for this job.  Never was I a disappointment to my District Manager.  There is nothing else I want but to be an asset in whatever line they put me in.  But this is what I get.  Yes, life is too unfair.  As long as they don't listen to the sentiments of their employees then they will lose good people.  More than 8 resignations filed to them in a year? and still counting.  Unless they do something about this.  For me, there's a lot of road waiting ahead.  But whichever road I take I'll always look back and say the experience was worth it for me to realize other opportunities waiting for me.

It’s 12 midnight and Im trying to learn Adobe  Photoshop.  Who would ever thought that you can manipulate pictures to the point of removing unwanted particles in the background.  You can actually make a picture blur, cascade it, and alter the colors or add something.  You can do whatever you want, the power is in your hands girl!  In just 1 click reimaging is very easy.  How I wish in real life we could do the same.  Do some retouching, remove unwanted entities in your life, edit it all you want, like delete some embarrassing moments and experiences you don't wanna remember but too bad the power now is not in your hands. 

But remember there’s always a reason for everything, reason why God put those people in your life, reason why those things happened.  Everything serves a purpose and every experience deserves a lesson.  We all just have to learn to how to accept and appreciate them. 

Editing one’s life?  Sounds interesting but you will violate the law of… Well I don't know how they call it but you guys know what I mean right?… So cheer up because at least we can remove those unwanted particles in pictures not in real life though….=)

SUDDEN CHANGES... How can you cope up with these?  Unexplainable or explainable change... wherever you wanna classify it. It is still harrasing right?  When change comes into the picture meaning to say there are certain things that you do before that you cannot do anymore because of certain reasons or there are new things in life that you you havn't experienced before that would shock you. 

Let's take for example changing your lover....  Or let's just say paving goodbye to your ex and hello to your new lover.  A lot of new things will bombard you.  New routines, new views about life, new ways of making love... hmmm sounds interesting at the same time depressing.  Why? What if you've been with your ex for how many years already.  Years of surprises, years of watching movies together, years of hugging and kissing, years of love and joy, years of facing life's problems together.... how will ever forget the feeling.. how will you ever forget the way you loved the person...Û

Well, Im not saying I still love my ex... It's just that atleast I know how to look back.  I value relationships.  And I know I will value my relationship now more than I did before.